Post by droodle on May 30, 2010 15:54:51 GMT -5
SOMETIMES I FIND IT HARD
• to believe there's someone else who could be •
JUST AS MESSED UP AS ME
[/size][/blockquote][/blockquote]• to believe there's someone else who could be •
JUST AS MESSED UP AS ME
There was something oddly fascinating about playgrounds. Kathleen couldn’t remember ever having a real childhood of her own, or, so at least, none that depicted a care-free life of gorging on sweets or playing around with other children her age. As far as she could recall, she’d always been studying, whether it be English, an instrument, or something else that would prove to be, as her mother had put it, ‘a necessity for every wife-to-be.’ Her mother forbade any dirty knees or scratched elbows, and Kathleen had grown thinking it to be the status quo for every child.
That being said, one could only imagine how bewildered and perplexed she was with all of the metal and plastic contraptions around her. Currently, she found herself seated on the very top of the slide, her hands gripping the metal bars that surrounded her left and right side fiercely. Had she not left her purse on the ground, she would have been writing down the experience in her notepad in hopes that some of the material might be useable for another date and another poem. But, honestly, even if she had it with her, would she be able to write anyway? If she let go on the railings, surely she’d fall.
What would the fall be like?
It was a simple slope, but the landing looked less-than-gentle. Her jaw remained clenched as she mentally tossed around the pros and cons of letting go. With each passing moment, her breathing became more erratic. Her stomach began to do strange acrobatics which she was certain could not be healthy for her. She was a coward. She couldn’t let go.
At least she could admire the view from where she was. It was a fairly tall slide, all things considered.
Or maybe she was just really, really small.
Her brown eyes scanned the area thoughtfully as she observed the rest of the playground, and for a brief moment, she was thankful that nobody else had a desire to use the slide that day. She didn’t quite feel like having to relent her seat, and yet, at the same time, she felt as though it might be the only thing that would actually get her to propel forward and use the slide as it was intended: for sliding.